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~Miss Trina~i wrote the gospel for giving up [[youlookprettysinking]] October 16 What is the deal?I want to know what the hell the deal is with this place. I haven't used this in months. Last time I used this I planned to revamp it and make it cool again because before that I hadn't used it in months. Nearly a year I think it was. I didn't even think anyone still used these things. I certainly don't. I thought everyone had moved on to cool other sites, like I have. I'm on this, Bebo, MySpace and Facebook. Pretty much these days I only use Facebook. I've out grown Bebo, never really used MySpace and this just got too screwed up after the transition to Windows Live.
So, it's well been established, even by just looking at this page, that I don't even use this anymore. The last blog on here is from somewhere around July, and the photos are years old. I'm not even friends with half those people anymore. And now I'm getting messages on here? Like what the? Four in like a week. Three from the same person. I'm assuming it's a chick, and she is freaking me out. It's a bit stalkerish really.
To whoever that girl is:
No I am not interested in your crap. Don't try to come onto me via a site like this because that is pathetic. No, I didn't convert "that girl". I'm not even friends with "that girl" anymore. That photo is over a year old. I don't want to cyber or whatever with you. For all I know you could be some old guy who just wants some action. Stop messaging me. You don't need to message me three times in one day. If I don't reply the first time I'm ignoring you and you need to be able to recognise that. If I knew how to adequately get around this site I probably would have blocked you from sending me messages already. Fuck off and leave me alone. I don't know who you are or why you're messaging me, but incase you just can't see the first thing on my profile is a photo of me and my boyfriend. While all these photos are old, that one is not outdated. I don't plan to cheat on my boyfriend, no matter how "not real" you are or how much you message me.
To whoever that guy is:
No I am not single. You should be able to see that from my page. And no, I also don't care where you live.
Little rant over now. Ever since I've been using sites like this I've been sent messages like that. It's stupid. I mean like seriously, who picks up over a site like this? Making friends is fine, but going "hey I'm from the other side of the world, have no idea who you are, but you look great, want to cyber?" is absolutely stupid.
Well at least these messages have done one thing. I'm now going to go and delete all the outdated and old photos of me and everyone I knew because they dont' need to be on here anymore. I still hang around with probably three people out of the however many people in my photos. At least if I delete them no one will be able to message me about them. July 05 day offwell the big revamp that I had in mind didn't happen today. I got up early, had a shower early, bummed around, decided I might try to clean my room up and then went into town to meet Tom for his lunch break. I was in town for around four hours.
It was crazy over at Big W. Their massive toy sale started today. I really do think it is Australia's biggest toy sale, especially with a 124 page catalogue. The line from layby was up to near the front of the store, going all the way up the back wall and then down the side wall. It was crazy. I definately would not wait two hours to put a layby on. Although, there are some pretty good specials...but no I don't think I would. There was like ten people in laybe, three serving and the rest packing and moving things out of the way. It would have been such a crazy day. I'd hate to work there. Actually I'd probably like it because even though it's hectic I'd think it would be fun. I am a mad rush kind of person.
I bought a corset today from Bras N Things. I think it's going to be the start of a very long loving relationship. I'm so going to buy heaps when I have lots of money. That and shoes, which I also bought today. I spent over $50 today, and that was meant to be the money to pay for my tickets for Snow Patrol. Oh well, I'll just have to get more money out.
I've downloaded around five or so music clips today. I don't know how my internet is coping. Obviously I have more left than I thought, although it's a bit slow while downloading. And the stupid thing, I downloaded one and it comes up with that stupid prerecorded message of bill cliton going "I did not have sexual relations with that woman" god I was ready to throw the computer out the window. I'm not wasting good downloading time on that crap! It should be taken off frostwire. No one wants to listen to that shit.
I just realised that Fall Out Boy do really weird film clips. They're cool, but different, and way too much talking in some of them. Like you just want to chop the first 30 seconds off. In "a little less sixteen candles a little more touch me" Pete Wentz is a vampire. Yes, weird. Haha I put the video for "grand theft autumn" on my Bebo and wrote a little thing to all the teeny bopper "fans" because all of them have only heard Infinity on High, like all the 13 year old kids haven't heard the old stuff. I'm not saying that I'm a die hard fan, but I've heard most of the old stuff, and I like it all and I've been around since the last album came out, which is From Under the Cork Tree. I'm definately not a teeny bopper kid who just likes them cause they think Pete Wentz is hot. I like them cause of their music, all of their music.
White is the new black. Well in nail polish, and not really. I'll still paint my nails black when I can, but white is the colour of the moment. Not pretty French manicure white, liquid paper white. It's damn hot, I love it.
Well off to download more, chat on MSN, and maybe clean my room up...maybe July 03 revampheck yes I am going to redo this space and make it just as awesome as it was in it's day :)
Haha it's a big task really, considering it's going to take up heaps of my net usage for this month. Let's see if I can remember how to get around this page. I think I like the layout, so it might stay, and there's half the hard part gone. I'm going to check out the photos on here. I'm sure I've got heaps newer ones, a lot of those old ones from school last year can go. I'll update with an album of my selfies, a hanging out album, an edits album, a me and Tom album and I'll probably keep the pictures on here cause I like them. I don't know, I think most of them are erotic art so they can all stay definately. Come to think about it, I haven't been on that site for ages. There's bound to be like ten new pictures that I haven't seen yet. Will go check it out soon.
I don't know when this revamp will happen. I'm at Tom's at the moment, working this afternoon and all day tomorrow. Probably Thursday, I don't work at all on Thursday. I'll look through all the links I've got on here as well and see who still uses their space and who's been deleted and all that stuff. It's been so long.
This revamp might take a while... July 02 it's been longer than i thoughtSo that list that I wrote the other day about the things that I've been doing since I last updated should be longer, because I realised that it's been longer than I thought since I last updated. Since the 10th of December! That's like six months ago, more even. I've totally neglected this space, but then again I think everyone has because it just wasn't the same after it changed and it was a lot slower. Everyone I know has moved on to Bebo and MySpace, and even Tagged, which is totally crappy. I have one but I hate it and couldn't be bothered to delete it.
Additions to the list:
turned 18, had a party, Christmas, Gold Coast trip on which way too many awesome things happened, strip clubs in Surfers, adult shops, YMCA at roadworks, life without school, starting TAFE, boring classes, um I think that might be it now. Nothing else really significant has happened, I don't think. If I remember than I'll put it on here as well.
It's so cold right now. It's horrible. I know that it's way colder in other places, like where it snows, but I'm not used to the cold and I hate it. I'm finding it hard to type because my hands are so cold, but it's not too bad now. The sun is out today, which is a miracle. Actually it came back yesterday. I woke up and went "the sun is out!" but I couldn't see it all day because I was at work. So now the sun is out and things are looking good. Hopefully no more rain, even though we really need it, I'm just sick of it raining all the time. It was looking a bit cloudy this morning, but I bet that's only because I wanted to do washing, but it's looking pretty clear out there now.
It was July 1 yesterday. Tax time. Oh tax time sucks. I hate it. Last year I had to pay tax, because the government is stupid. I paid more tax than anyone I know, and I earnt less and got youth allowance payments! It's like for anyone that's poor enough to get endorsements they have to pay more tax. Is it just me or is that a little unfair? I think it's totally unfair. This year, I've earnt heaps more than last year and I also stopped getting youth allowance, but the youth allowance that I paid had tax taken out of it. So I'm really hoping that I'll get some money back this year. I've paid nearly $900 tax on my work money, and I'm not sure how much on youth allowance but I didn't get that much from there anyway. Mum had a quick look at it and said that I should get some money back. She doesn't really know though, she hasn't done a tax return in years because she doesn't work, she just gets government money, and not enough to have to pay tax on it. It'll be a little while until I find out how much tax I get back, the operative word being "get back" as I really hope I don't have to pay tax. Someone will be hearing about it if I do have to pay tax. I'm not going to be happy, that's for sure. I want money back, I'm sick of being rauted by the system.
A blast from the past occured yesterday, I think. Someone named Carly rang and asked for Mum. After talking a while with her Mum decided that it was Carly's mum pretending to be Carly, because that's who it sounded like. Carly is my half sister, one that we have absolutely nothing to do with. The story is a very long one and I don't care to go back to it. It was weird having her ring. Apparently she's living in Iluka and going to visit the Ryans sometime this school holidays. I don't know why she had to tell us that. Mum was sitting there telling me all this while Big Brother was on, and I was more interested in Big Brother. That's saying something, because I hate Big Brother. I don't care if she's here, or if she sees him, or if she wants to come visit. It's nothing against her, I'm sure she's a fine person and has grown up from her spoilt brat stage, I just don't need to have anything to do with her. I don't feel like I'm related to her. I don't feel like I'm related to any of them because Bek and I are so much better than they are. For starters we haven't abandoned anyone or anything like that. We're completely different people. I'm fine with feeling unwanted, I got over that a long time ago. I don't know why she feels that we would want to see her. Not to be rude but I don't want to see her. It's just annoying that I have to think about all this again, and I'll write more about it on my Bebo author page when I feel like it today. And then I won't be thinking about it, or her again.
June 30 ooh changesWell well well, I haven't logged into this page for a while. Hasn't it changed? It's completely different. Probably still as slow, I dont' know though because my internet is a bit slow tonight anyway. The first time I noticed that something had changed was a while back when I got an email from here, like they send out emails for Bebo and MySpace. It told me that I had a message on here or something like that, I can't remember. It was really weird, I'm like "what? MSN doesn't send out emails for the spaces" insert confused face here. I can't remember if I checked it then or not so the changes are all still a bit new to me. For starters, there's a homepage. There wasn't a homepage on here last time I was on here. But now there's a homepage and it tells you who's updated last (the earliest on my list is 14 days ago) and also what comments you have on your blogs and from whom. It's a little bit strange but I think I like it. It's more like Bebo now, only heaps different still, but nothing really much like MySpace. I guess they're all different, and that's why I use all of them.
Not much new has happened. I can't remember the last blog I did on here. I think in the time between blogs on here I've broken up with Tom a couple of times, been whored over by two girls that I considered very close and held special places for in my heart, put up with abuse from Tom's family (which I'm still getting from Emma), worked, applied to uni, gotten back together with Tom (for real, we're still together), been apologised to by everyone in Tom's family except Emma (which is ok, her attempts to insult me are funny), made countless Bebo friends, started up seven author pages on Bebo, made new friends, bought lots of stuff for Tom's room, found out my Mum is pregnant, started uni (well in a couple of weeks), been bought a car, lost friends, bought new clothes and shoes, spent lots of money, quit singing lessons, found new music, cleaned up my room, messed up my room, gone driving, and, um I think that might just be it. It's all fun and games, except the breaking up part, that wasn't fun at all, but it's all ok now. Things are good. So even though a lot has happened it all kind of went full circle and most things are back to where they were. Except for losing freinds, which I realised they weren't worth the pain I felt, and Mum being pregnant. And starting uni. Soon.
Things with Tom and I are awesome. I haven't really moved back into his room like I was before. I still come home a lot and just take the stuff I need out there. I think it works better that way, because then we don't get sick of each other too easily. The whole shit thing with his family has blown over, except for Emma because she's thirteen and thinks she's invincible, hence she tries her very hardest to insult me. Honestly though, like it hurts me. I just sit there and laugh, one day they'll learn how to insult someone and someone might actually cry at their pathetic attempts. But for now, they're just good entertainment. Everyone else in his family are cool with us being back together. They all finally apologised to me. I must say that I didn't apologise to them, because anything I said about them was because of what they said about me first, I never initiated anything. I didn't feel like I should apologise. Things are good though, although because of Emma I'm not allowed in their house, just in Tom's room, but that doesn't bother me. I have no need to really go anywhere near them. Tom and I are pretty much self sufficient in his room anyway. We bought a microwave today. There's a full bathroom, half a kitchen set up. We have pots, a gas plate, a jug, a toaster, a sink and a fridge, and we buy most of our own food. He also has a TV and a computer so we're pretty much set. I might move out into his room eventually, but right now it's a bit hard to get organised. I dont know if I'm ready to move out. I can't cook, or even drive. And Mum is having her baby soon, and I definately still want to be around for that, although I'll probably think differently when the time comes and I'm losing sleep.
I start uni soon. I'm doing corresspondance so I'll still be at home and work and with Tom. I'm doing Arts. I only just realised I need to pick three subjects and not just one. I'm doing part time so I only need to do two units a semester. The first semester I'm doing I'm doing two psych units. I picked my other subject as the writing one that they offer but I have no idea for the third. I guess I don't need to worry about it until I'm picking units again. It's going to be hard I think, to get back into the routine of study. That's what I went to TAFE for, but I haven't even done hardly any TAFE work. I'm going to catch up one day, hopefully one day soon. I'm going to get back into the routine of doing everything. I think I've kind of promised myself that one day soon I'll get organised. That one day will be after Tiff leaves for uni again and after Nikki visits. I think getting organised will be easier once I get into uni study. Wish me luck, hope I'm good at uni!
http://sex-kitten-trina.bebo.com <--- main Bebo page
http://-to-be-edited-.bebo.com <--- page for tonnes of edited pics that I do
http://anorexia-diary.bebo.com <--- Extracts from Anorexia's Diary author page
http://no-beginning.bebo.com <--- blogging author page
http://no-beginning-2.bebo.com <--- A Continuation (of the one above)
http://howtosurvive.bebo.com <--- the diary of my (shortlived but very serious) break up
http://cheat-trina.bebo.com <--- Cheat author page
http://love-unexpected.bebo.com <--- Unexpected Love author page
They are my many pages. I seem to be addicted to blogging and posting all sorts of stuff on the internet. My main addiction I would say is photos. I have so many photo albums on my pages and I love to edit pics. I have way too many pictures that I've edited. I love taking photos, photos are memories and I love them. I think I'd die if I couldn't take photos and post them on these sorts of sites for everyone to see. I don't know, maybe that's a bit extreme.
Music
30 Seconds to Mars
AFI
All American Rejects
Amber Pacific
Boys Like Girls
Cauterize
Cute is what we Aim For
Dashboard Confessional
Evanescence
Fall Out Boy
From First To Last
Kisschasy
KT Tunstall
Mika
My Chemical Romance
Panic at the Disco
Paramore
Placebo
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Snow Patrol
Taking Back Sunday
The Used
Within Temptation
I am going to see Snow Patrol in September. It's very exciting, but then I found out Fall Out Boy were coming back then too and I had already bought the Snow Patrol ticket so I miss out on Fall Out Boy. Hopefully they come back soon. I can't wait, I've never been to a real concert before!
Well I'm going to stop raving on now...
Drop me a comment on any of my pages please. I'll be sure to get back to you. December 10 {untitled}maybe it's true ~ maybe it's not
but isn't that the point of who i am?
to make you believe what i want you to believe
to make you wonder and question
to make you think maybe this is real
to hint to you to read between the lines
to find a meaning that isn't necessarily there
but maybe this meaning is what you want
or maybe it's what i want
this is my way of telling you
my deepest, darkest secrets
and for you to try to decide
whether they are real
or whether you will believe them
this is who i am, a writer
an author, a master of deception
for i can make you believe anything
or nothing at all... December 01 no more schoolwell school is over :) and for the last couple of weeks i have happily been bumming around at home, working, spending time with tom, planning birthday parties and spending moneys :) it's been fun...so i haven't really been doing anything that interesting but oh well...mine and tiff's birthdays are coming up really soon which is very very awesome and we're all very excited :) can't wait til i'm 18 so i can go out pubbing and clubbing and drinking and "shopping" lol and i also can't wait til nat comes down for country music after our holiday which is another thing i can't wait for...it's going to be a very exciting couple of months :) until about feb...and then i go to tafe and it won't be so exciting any more :P well it still will be just not as much.
a very tragic thing happened yesterday...i had a bad day {i can hear you all gasp}
yesterday morning i woke up at 7am!!! sleeping at home so the light shone through my window and woke me up. but the tragic thing was bek didn't have to go to school so i woke up for no reason and could not get back to sleep. some idiot rang the house phone at 7 something which kept me from sleeping and then by that time i definately wasn't getting back to sleep. then i woke up, only to go on the computer to find my bebo had been deleted :( which sucked majorly and still does. then i had to go to work. which wasn't too bad i guess, for a five hour shift. but i had to change the time i worked yesterday and no one knew about it so i got there and everyone was wondering what i was doing there at that time but that all figured out...but then i cut my finger on the cash drawer when i tried to pull it out :( which hurt. and i asked my boss for a band aid cause it bled a bit and he forgot about me! i was stuck there for like half an hour doing everything one handed, which is pretty hard for my job, until the blood dried out and it didn't hurt anymore. then when i finished my mum was like half an hour late to pick me up to take me to singing because my brothers bus was late so i was ten minutes late to singing! which is totally not cool cause i love it and lessons are expensive. so i missed half my lesson and still paid for the whole thing. and then when tom came around for dinner he wasn't hungry and didn't eat and stayed for like half an hour :( but i bought the dvd i wanted so it wasn't all bad...
i made a new bebo - it's http://misstrina88.bebo.com so i hope you all go and visit and add me as a friend and comment on all my photos. though it's taking forever to get it back to the way it was and i've lost half my photos :( but oh well November 17 random quiz in fluoro greenABOUT ME Natural hair colour: Brown. Glasses/contacts: No FAVOURITE Colour: don't really have a favourite...but i like pink and blue and ... well all of them Band: (s): Panic! at the Disco, Fall Out Boy, Amber Pacific, Snow Patrol Song: any from the above bands TV show: The OC, Jericho Book: don't really have a favourite Food: I love chocolate and watermelon and apricots and sherbie lollies Flower: Frangipanis :) DO YOU Have a job?: Yes ~ I'm a checkout chick :) Have a cell phone?: Yes Like to play sports?: I like some but I don't play any Like school?: I do now :( and I don't go anymore and I'm going to be so bored without it...it was good for the social life CAN YOU Go a day without food?: Yes HAVE YOU EVER Had a serious surgery?: No Cried over a girl?: Yes Cried over a boy?: Yes Been arrested?: No Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?: No Kicked a guy where it hurts?: Probably by accident Made homemade muffins?: Yes PICK ONE Paint/charcoal: Paint Meat/vegetarian: Meat Strawberries/blueberries: Strawberries Cat/dog: Cat Long sleeve/short sleeves: Short FRIENDSHIP Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?: No LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP Are you single?: No WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU Made fun of someone: Don't know WORD ASSOCIATION Rain: Water Race: Run Jump: "How high?" I.. hate: at the moment, homophobic people am annoyed by: narrow minded people SILLY STUFF What day is it?: Friday DO YOU THINK YOU ARE smart?: Yes WOULD YOU EVER Go scuba diving?: Don't know LAST QUESTIONS November 11 finishedWOOHOO
OH YEA ~ FINISHED SCHOOL FOREVER!!! :)
IT'S SO AWESOME :p LOVING NOT HAVING TO STUDY ANYMORE....I CAN SIT HERE AND PLAY COMPUTER GAMES ALL DAY :p November 09 random thoughts of the day...yes updating regularly i think now...back addicted to it...well i'm still getting comments ~ which is AWESOME...keep them coming :)
well yes...i have to keep remembering how different this is to bebo...but this is my blog and because my friends don't really check it anymore {i don't think any of my friends have kept with their msn spaces after finding bebo and the changes here} i can write pretty much anything i want. bebo is kind of just like a networking page, where you can write blogs if you want to write anything meaningful...it's more interactive with the friends and comment layout...very different..so i've got two {well three} completely different blogs for different purposes. bebo is networking and this one i use to write, reflect, take time out and the rest...
the last few weeks have been strange...what with hsc exams and all. i'm sleeping and waking up at weird times and working on days i'm not meant to be working on and only spending hours at a time at school and sitting down alot. the only thing that is constant in this crazy exam timetable is my singing lesson at 3:30 every thursday afternoon...and working 12 hours a week...but those 12 hours change and lately its been more like 15 hours...which is good for the bank, not so good for the studying. speaking of studying, not really doing much of it. the hsc has been like the biggest anti-climax ever...it's like all this talking up meant nothing and we're here going "well this is a little boring, a little over-exaggerated" and i'm just a little over it now. but it finishes tomorrow and we're celebrating :)
things have happened over the last couple of weeks on the relationship front...girlfriends fights...yea lots of stuff has happened ~ couldn't be bothered to go into details though. got me thinking though: am i a bad person for wanting more than one person at once? does that really make me one of those horrible people? it isn't really a new concept for me, liking and wanting more than one person, but people i know don't really like it...i mean you know, i don't ever want to hurt anyone but i'm not really sure i'm just a one person person, and being bisexual the relationships are different between me being with my boyfriend and being with another girl. maybe it does make me a bad person, and if it does then i will just deal with it.
at singing today i realised that the mirror there is a great mirror for staring at oneself while knowing all the words to the song. people tell me i'm getting skinnier. i know i am, i don't need to be told. the only proof i had was the scales but now i think i do look skinnier. i mean, i'm not trying and someone is going to read this and call me anorexic and blah blah blah but i'm not trying. maybe i do want to look better but i'm eating and the rest and i'm not purposely loosing weight. i guess the whole exam screwed up body clock doesn't really help it but oh well...maybe i'll go back to being underweight were i was before.
the music scene has changed lately :P i'm into punk and a little emo...favourite bands at the moment ~ fall out boy, panic at the disco, amber pacific, snow patrol and yea... i think that's it ~ ooh i love the saints are coming by u2 :) it's very awesome
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